Plan of attack

Not sure how to format this post so I'm just going to put it all out there.

• Once I started taking my vitamins my voracious appetite went away.
• If I'm hungry between meals I'll eat one of those no sugar added fruit cups packed in water with some baby carrots
• It feels so good to be back on plan
• I've been weighing myself on different scales, that don't agree, so I really don't have any official weight loss yet, but I think I have lost some weight
• I'll be going to a meeting Monday
• I feel like I did before I started to have trouble.
• As I said on Twitter, I'm getting excited about losing weight again.

As promised, here I am!

So this is the report for this week.

• I started back on Weight Watchers a week ago today (Yay!)
• I haven't gained any weight since last week! (Yay!)
• Today, when I told my Doctor (Who's really a nurse practicioner) I had gained 30 pounds she said "We have to get that off you." (I agree)
• I see my Doctor again in three months and her goal for me is to lose 10 pounds. That's less than a pound a week. (I think I can do that)
• I told my Doctor I had lower back pain, which I thought was something else, but she confirmed it's only just me being fat (how disappointing)
• My Doctor and I discussed that my meds may be causing my weight gain, but we'll see. (I hope that doesn't happen)
• I ate like crazy today, then again. my Mom's been in town and I tend to eat like crazy when she's around no matter where I see her. (but that's no excuse)
• I'm working on formulating a way to get myself to stay away from temptation
• I'm going to start walking again soon (Maybe tomorrow)
• I have a charity walk to participate in next weekend and I'm afraid I can't do the entire 3 miles (I'll take my sweet time if I have to. It might be a serious wake up call.)

That's all!

Thank you for reading!

Rock bottom

I'm at 290 and this is where it ends. There is no way I'm going into the 300s. I've gained 30 pounds and I am so ashamed and feel like such a failure. I could blame it on my medication or I could blame it on stress. All I need to do is just take responsibility and stop.

When I started this blog I wanted to be as frank as possible and show my trials and tribulations and ups and down without holding back. Well, in the last six months I've been holding so much back and I feel like such a  phony.

I've been quiet lately because I've slowly been gaining weight. I hate how I posted so many false starts, that makes me feel like a big phony too.

For now on I will be posting every week and tell exactly what is happening. I will report if I'm eating like crazy, I will post if I gained and I will be reporting on how I feel. Even if it's only a few sentences. I will be more accountable. I probably should go to a meeting too.

This may be another false start, but I'm going to have to try.

As always thanks for reading.