The Oscar Epiphany

So...

I've been struggling a lot lately. My eating has been crazy, I've been feeling sorry for myself and making excuses. I haven't stepped on a scale in a while and I didn't see any end in sight. I haven't been to a meeting in a few weeks either. So many times I wanted to give up in the last few weeks. I even wanted to stop blogging.

Well, tonight, while watching The Oscars tonight I had an amazing epiphany.

Being the musical lover I am, I was excited when John Travolta came on the stage and told about the musical number with Catherine Zeta-Jones, Jennifer Hudson and the stars of the movie Les Miserables. I figured it would be a wonderful tribute to modern movie musicals.

When Jennifer Hudson's part of the number came on they showed short snippets of the movie Dreamgirls. Immediately after that flash of her in the movie she started to sing.

I cried like a baby.

Yes, "And I Am Telling You I'm Not Going". is a very emotional song. However, for me, it was more. Something clicked in my head once again.

The clip of the movie reminded me who she was, that beautiful young overweight woman who sang like nobody's business on American Idol who was voted off way too early who then went on to then become to win a Grammy award for her debut album, and won an Oscar for her role in Showgirls. Watching her sing on the Oscars reminded me of the woman who she is now, after losing all of that weight and becoming a Weight Watchers spokesperson. It reminded me that she was the reason that I started Weight Watchers; that I connected with those "new day" commercials she was in in 2011. Those commercials that launched me on this journey.

Through the tears, I remembered how good it felt to be all about Weight Watchers when I started the program. I remembered how great it was, although I wasn't at my goal weight, to be speaking as a success story in March of 2012. I remembered how good it felt as the pounds went away. I remembered how good it felt as my clothes got looser and got into smaller sizes. I remembered how good those non-scale victories felt. I remembered how great it felt to ride a roller coaster again in 2011. I remember how great it felt to sit on the floor comfortably to play with my Granddaughter for the first time this past September. I remember how good the journey felt and how it can feel good again. I remembered why I started on this journey and I decided I'm not about to go back. There's too much road ahead I have to cover. So many non-scale victories to achieve. So many things I want to do and keep doing.

What an amazing moment to get me out of my funk.

It's a new day!

Thank you for reading!